Once again , not photo related

Im sorry for this other post that isnt photo related ... And once more , if u dont wanna read it feel free not to . But like i said in the previous post , im reminding myself .

@ Guilt : is probably the worst of feelings . Its like an evil soul that possesses u , and no force in the world can exorcise it . It follows u in ur sleep , when ure awake , in ur work , when u eat , when u deal with people . And u find urself escaping urself and avoiding it as much as possible . U rush off to work hoping the noise will rid u of ur demon thats come to possess u so badly , u wake up at 3 in the night and run out of ur home after guilt has suffocated u to near death when u tried to sleep after days of escaping ur bed . U can no longer eat , and feel like vomiting if u put as much as a spoonfull in ur mouth , u feel like vomiting because ure so disgusted of who u are and what uve become ,it makes u nauseous .

U find urself wishing u can escape this body and soul which have become too polluted to live in , ure wishing u can turn back time , ure wishing u can go back to the old body that hasnt suffered the grasp of ur demonish guilt . U can no longer look in the mirror , u reach the point where u nearly forget what u look like . People try to talk to u , but all u see are ghosts and demons of guilt in their faces , every where u turn its ghosts and demons , u need an exorcism but u know for sure ure not getting one till the day u leave this world .

Guilt , is a horrible feeling , and the worst part is .... u dont know when it will strike . U may live the biggest part of ur life doing things that u dont feel guilty for or about , and suddenly a small situation triggers feelings of guilt that u thought u never had , and every small invisible detail to u that never seemed to matter , and that u thought will never bother u , is haunting u mercilessly . At all costs , try to avoid guilt , cause if u keep knocking on the devils door long enough , someones bound to answer .

@ Feeling like ur the lowest form of life on earth , and hating oneself beyond description , may not be a healthy place to be , but its certainly a good place to start if u decide to go on a journey of self correction and improvement . A journey by which u hope , u can exorcise ur most destructive feelings of guilt .

Once again , im done..... for .